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Thursday, May 26, 2011

24 weeks

I'm tired.

I'm hurting.

I'm worried.

This pregnancy was wanted. It was welcomed. It was celebrated.

This baby is a blessing. She is wanted. She is welcomed. She will be celebrated.

But it can't be over soon enough. It has caused me to wonder if more children is a good thing. It's caused me to question whether or not giving our family size to the Lord is indeed something I can do. I know it's the right thing to do, but I don't think I have another nine months in me.

I'm struggling with life. I struggle to do the barest of bare minimums each day. I have no energy and no strength. I have no patience and no tolerance. I'm pretty sure I may even have gestational diabetes. I bought a glucometer and have been testing my sugar levels several times a day.

It's not looking good.

This comes as no surprise. I'm 100 pounds over weight and in love with sugar. One plus one still equals two, right?

Sixteen weeks is an eternity. I'm hoping that it will be over then and that I haven't really died and gone to he'll without realizing it.

Friday, May 20, 2011

23 weeks

Time is moving right along. And crawling by at the same time. I've always felt like nine moths was way too long for a pregnancy. Though I much prefer nine to eighteen. That thought always reminds me I'm glad I'm not an elephant.

Though I may resemble one....

We're excited about having another home birth. No jumping ship at the end this time either. Not that I really jumped ship. I was just so anxious to met Sadie, that I went in knowing they'd induce me.

Which they gladly did.

I'm excited to meet Skyler, but I don't have the anxiety I did during Sadie's pregnancy.

I will have to say though, it's hard to visualize the birth without knowing where to visualize it. We have no idea where we'll live come September or where Brandon will be working. I'm trying hard to not think about that. But being a control freak, it's kinda hard not to.

Saturday, May 7, 2011

21 weeks and PICTURES!

Here I am at 14ish weeks:

And this is 21 weeks:

Yeah. Not such a great improvement. I seem to have lost some weight in the belly area and gained some in my butt and face. Nice. Just what I was working towards. At least I'm not letting myself down, right? Meh.

So I'm still over the moon stoked about this little one being a girl.

So. Can't. Wait. To. Meet. Her.

We've changed our minds on her middle name. It's going to be Jillian instead of Grace. I've wanted to use the name Jillian since our first was a baby. We somehow ended up with the first letter always being S and well, Sillian just doesn't have the same appeal for some reason.

I'm feeling better. I'm still very tired all the time and find it hard to breathe at times. I'm not enjoying either one of these things, but it is what it is and this too shall pass. Probably not until I drop the extra 100lbs I seem to love. Someone please sew my mouth shut.

19 weeks to go!!!